Saturday, September 30, 2006

corona

there's a song by the minutemen that was covered a couple of years ago by calexico called 'corona'. nice cover. d. boon would be proud, i think.

heard the cover recently and went in search of the original and boy was it a trip down memory lane.

there was a bar in downtown l.a. across from the convention center that was such a dive. there was a crazy, short, overweight, fifty something tutu wearing mexican waitress that seemed to have a love/hate relationship with the random punk shows that happened there. david alex and i would spend a long summer there. come to think of it, i think that she and the other 'waitresses' were taxi dancers (i was a tad young and blissfully naive), that seemed plum out of luck when the punks descended. this tutu wearing waitress liked me well enough. i was one apparently one of the only punk invaders that spoke any spanish and she beamed when i told her she reminded me of my abuela. got me some lotta free beers.

david didn't like coronas, but was jealous of anyone getting free beers of choice.

corona was the only beer of choice there, and i can fuzzily recall drinking a few too many and somehow d. boon ended up wearing the tutu one night while performing and someone played a trumpet with the band and i got my first and only partial lap dance (not from the abuela type, 'nuff said) and i ended up walking home by myself all the way home to west l.a. down pico. david and his van had vanished. so there i am stumbling for 8 miles or so, past closed mortuaries and non-descript manufacturers and bars, linking up with many a random, stumbling, spanish speaking companion every few blocks.

in love with the minutemen and corona and los angeles.

20 some odd years later, it's 1 am, i've been feverish sick these last 2 days and i woke up after 7 hours of fitful sleep craving a tall frosty mexican beer, and thinking of those dive days. can't remember the name of the bar.

the whole block that the bar was on was torn down to extend the convention center that was across the street.

never went back after that night.

david got home ok.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

dry hands

you know the world is all right when the impulse to put lotion on the hands is outweighed by the desire to keep holding them.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

deutsche au printemps !

yes, it's springtime, and that means my (mostly) german show...

faust-the sad skinhead
kraftwerk-kometenmelodie 2
mobius/plank/thompson-boy boy boy
can-lh702
neu-neuschee
holger czukay-der osten ist rot
heino!-karamba, karacho, ein whisky
emergency-confessions
lost gringos-troca troca culebrero
jane-out in the rain
alexao sevsek-das edelweis(really austrian)
curly curve-hell and booze
jaki liebezeit-neon man
slap happy und faust-charlie 'n' charlie
lotte lenya-alabama song
can-blue bag (inside paper)
der plan-geri regi
kraftwerk-the model
guru guru-samantha's rabbit
vogel-flaschenzug
lost gringos-the day that you will love me
faust-it's a bit of pain
slap happy-strayed
can-babylonian pearl
holger czukay-the photo song
moebius & plank (mit h. czukay)-feedback 66
heino-die lustigen holzhackerbub'n
heiner goebbels-berlin ku-damn
neu-super 16

and some extra hour...

kraftwerk-autobahn (the whole 22 mins)
xtc-senses working overtime
robert mitchum-little ole wine drinker me
amon duul II-she came through the chimney
man ray band-i feel so bad
lost gringos-ramona
raha-marebebus
slap happy mit faust-casablanca moon
unknown washerwomen-fiesta de virgin del carmen,atacames, equador
holger czukay-schaue vertrauensvoll in die zukunft
can-vitamin c
peter blegvad-frenzy
embryo-radio marrakesch
robert mitchum-whippoorwill
mobius/plank/thompson-das apartment
the pussywillows-vindaloo
this heat-pool
pam arnoff-clear
can-she brings the rain
xtc-snowman

ow!ow!ow! 3 1/2 hours is enuff...

Monday, September 18, 2006

please don't belong

i just hate saying goodbye.

left beth at the airport this morning, after rushing my daughter to go over to the neighbor's to get a ride to school so that we could get out of the house to try to get beth to the terminal for the 2 hour pre-boarding current state of things security 2 step.

i don't even know when i will see her again (though i do know it will be soon).

i remember my family's habit of watching the departee actually going into the accordion gate and onto the plane (no more of that).

i also recall walking away from my folk's house, and down the street to the bus. every time i looked back, there was my mother's tiny far away figure watching me as i walked away from her. she would wave every time she saw me turn around. this could go on for blocks. this habit had started when i began walking to elementary school.

she also insists that i call whenever i got home from traveling.

my parents also watch my car as i drive away from them.

and lately i watch my girl walk through the gate and into school. just to make sure.

i felt vaguely guilty just 'dropping off' beth at the white zone for immediate unloading and loading only.

which explains why i found myself parked outside of the airport, waiting for the plane to take off.

then i remembered the 2 hour 2 step.

i started the car..

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

yoinks

it's job hunting time.

and i hates it.

just how does one sell oneself when the best 'qualifications' one can come up with include the following:

stay at home dad
no college education
lousy typist
barista
obscure music knowledge
too much retail management for shitty independants
dj
reads too much
former drummer in burlesque reviews
speaks spanish!
hates non profits
likes hiking
former clown
knows all about 'star trek'

items like that just go over so well in the interview process.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

the long and short of the rumble

as long as i do my show (killradio.org, thurs 7 ta 9pm) i will post my set...
-special short show! i forgot me key!!-
thanks again, lady mo...

all long songs: artist, title, time...

scott walker-plastic palace people-6.04
serge gainsbourg-melody-7.33
velvet underground-all tomorrow's parties-5.58
psychic tv-only love can break your heart-6.04
holger czukay-persian love-6.22
don mclean-american pie-8.24
wire-a touching display-6.55
queens of the stone age-better living through chemistry-5.48
unlisted(lata mangeshkar?)-mera jawani-6.04
bob dylan-stuck inside of mobile with the memphis blues again-7.04
linton kwesi johnson-wat about di workin' class-5.12
the fall-the classical-5.17

and that was the long and short of it...

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

fair weather

they say that you can really tell what kind of person someone is by their friends. or by the company they keep.

even though i've lost four of my best friends over the years, gotten married, become a dad, gone nutso and very depressed i can still count on those remaining friends to forgive me, accept me and support me.

i am honored to know these folks, and count myself lucky. you know who you are.

i've even managed to make new friends, or re-aquaint myself with separated pals these last 2 years and they still want me around, in spite of my honest admissions of my not so social behaviors. again, i'm lucky.

even got myself the best girlfriend ever. she knows all.

on the other hand, there are some folks that i considered friends these last 12 years as i got to know them through marriage and i had long ago stopped considering 'my wife's friends'.

let's just say that since i moved out (and before completely losing it), many of these folks seemingly decided to take sides, and so i have not heard from most, even after i tried to contact them. no one has ever thought to hear or ask my side. only a couple of them have ever gotten around to dropping a line. you know who you are

that hurts a lot, but i suppose that shows some kind of twisted loyalty to their friend. i guess that also means that i was always just 'the husband' and not much else. ten years or so of shared experiences don't matter.

i did recently find out that a few of them read the blog, and report back. so i guess you know who you are.

i expect better from people.

i get the best from true friends, and i am grateful and blessed. you know who you are.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

this happens

a funny thing happened after the fight.

i should bactrack. the ex and i had a series of phone message snipes (how very 21st century) that resulted in a lot of anger and hurtful things said on both sides. the way most divorced couples do. we are not immune nor any less capeable of nasty behaviors, especially after 12 years of knowing each other.

the subject matter is not important, but it did relate to how we each interpreted how we dealt with the the little one with a 'big issue'.

we each felt the other had handled it very badly. total misinterpretation of the events. but i just knew that the ex would compound the potential problem by discussing it with our girl before reason had re-set.

after the two of us just blowing it, mavis came by the next day-as she does each weekday morning-to have me take her to school. she was glum. it had happened. i was pissed. the can of worms had been opened and all my careful tip-toeing over a potentially major change had been totally wiped out.

or so i thought.

i asked her what was up, and the subject that we adults had gotten so bent out of shape over was not what was on her mind (she was "fine with that"), it was that her mother had been so upset, and that we had argued that was worrying her.

i tried to explain (clumsily) that sometimes mommies and daddies fight, but that doesn't mean that-

mavis interrupts me and tells me it's okay. she reminds me that i should expect some difficult times after a divorce. this happens, she says.

i am dumbfounded. she'll be 10 in december.

we did something right.

my anger just melts away. we are good.