time enough for now

i often wonder how differently my life might have gone under different circumstances.

what if my parents had decided to stay in costa rica?

how would my learning have been changed if my school counselers had not actively discouraged me from going to college (that's a whole other entry)?

where would i be today if kim hadn't of played matchmaker?

or if i hadn't lost it quite the way i did after the divorce?

who knew that a hike on a whim up onto mt. hollywood would produce my little girl?

or that deciding to check the personals, instead of a movie, and seeing beth's profile could lead to so much happiness?

what more could i have done, without the years spent mourning the deceased?

if david hadn't been next to me when i choked on that chip?

all these things, or others that i missed, all lead to the me of today. a bit more worn down, perhaps, but richer for the experiences and memories.

details, i suppose. and the time to mull them over.

time.